Sunday Sunset end of Jan 2009

got some favs of birds of course and me and big Pacific

obsessed

yeah, i am just crazy about taking pics with my new SLR camera and i enjoy it a lot!
I have taken pics since i was 10 yrs old, when my mom gave me my first camera! I have been told that i have a good eye and i have been paid doing it once:) and i have asked to give my photos as a gift. I am happy about that and i cannot wait to come and take some beautiful photos in Estonia!

Lazy Rainy Saturday Sunset

Sun and clouds make a nice painting in at the skies........

Days of life

Since I am still kinda living my surgery, meaning my recovery is still an ongoing process and i have to do labs and i had to to go the hospital yesterday, i also decided to take some photos.......
one is The Hospital and the other the view from its parking lot we well as from its windows.

Back To Life Part 2-Winecountry Fun

Italian countryside in Southern Ca-pretty cute...

Back To LIfe- Beautiful Pacific

Here the pics can tell the story, back to warm and niceness and shunshine after some xmas chill and darkness...

Time off from Life

I have been contemplating of writing here already before my surgery and then after, after of course after i started to feel somehow human again, which has happened just couple of days ago and 3 weeks after the surgery. I am still home and I am still recovering and it's been 4 weeks now. I was actually hoping for a miracle from this 4th week and hoping to get back to LIFE from Monday, but unfortunately my body tells me that it's not happening. So, i have to wait a little more. The best information about it all i have gotten from DR Leesment, a retired surgeon, who happens to be Estonian and has practised here in US all his life. He is the most honest and truthful (sickening at times) about it all and it is very good to know, like it almost helps u to heal.
Anyways, i guess it will be a long story here and I should keep is short and sweet instead. It was quite an interesting experience, as my anesthesiologist told me 10 min before he put me under.It was a tough experience I would say. They give u sedatives before hand, so it is not like u can stand up and run away....and i kept asking "whats going on, what is he doing now" and the nurse who was holding me answered instead, different from what they show on TV.
I liked them all, the whole OR team and my super good looking surgeons, two young blond (of course super smart) ladies. I did want to beat up nighttime nurses and say something mean to them, but i did not, i tried to remain super nice and was hoping to get the same treatment.....
I have to write that before I forget all, since pain is also easy to forget...
First 24 hours was so bad that I could not imagine anything to be so bad at all, because if u r hurt superbad ur body usually goes into shock and it is a different feeling. I had to come out of it. I was throwing up something i did not have and that with my belly just freshly cut open. It is quite difficult to explain. It is just pain and nausea and a real suffering and torture. After 24 hours it became better with no nausea, but first week was still superbad, i could sleep 1-1.5 hours at a time and be only on my back, which i pretty much could also not do anymore, since all my backside was just so sore.
All that recovery feels complete time off from whole normal everyday life, I have to rehabilitate myself back to society. I have not driven a car for 4 weeks, not to mention, standing up from bed first time was like i have never walked in my life.
Anyone who has experienced something like that understands what I am talking about and anyone who has not, it is difficult to understand and i would not even wish to me worst enemy to feel something like that ever.
So, now here I am, I survived and as i asked my anesthesiologist not to kill me, he did not and my beautiful surgeons team did not either.....before that I was quite almost sure that I am amongst this 5 % who get something superbad happening and i was so scared and every time i had to talk to a doc i was just crying....and crying off and on whole 3 months before and tried not to think of it and keep myself busy with everything else.
I hope to get back to life in a week! And I thank u everyone who came to visit me and brought me beautiful flowers and other gifts and kept me in their minds thru email and phonecall!